So these past couple weeks have been interesting ones. I have been bumped up in my role in the youth group, and now have 1/2 of the youth group on my shoulders. I am stressed, overwhelmed, and LOVING it!!
For awhile now i have been praying for God to show me what it looks like to be totally dependent upon Him. Whenever something came along i wanted to be able to immediately turn towards the eyes of my Lord, catch His gaze, and know in my heart hat He has everything under control. Well, God has placed me in this place of leadership, and for the longest time i was second guessing it, and know God has revealed to me the reason i am where i am! This sudden boost into leadership has caused me to understand that i am lowley and God is a great God.
I have tried for so long to take everything under my control and when i try this, everything fails. I have had to rely on God for curriculum, and direction for the first time in a really long time. I know longer can stand on my own two feet, because when i do this, i fall.
Somebody once told me that they feared praying for complete dependence on God, because they knew God would grant them that prayer. And what that entailed scared them. Well i have been praying for complete dependence and surrender, and God has definitely been answering that prayer. There have been multiple instances where i have had to drop to my knees and cry out to God for His divine strength and guidance. He is a faithful God and i know He is going to continue, and always has, been there lifting me up, its just up to me, whether i choose to fix my eyes on grace.
the end.
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